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I'm surprised I haven't kept up with this journal better. I haven't updated in over 2 months!! You'd think with all the boredom I have here at work I'd have plenty of time to update but for some reason I2US just takes all my time... even when there's nothing new lol! I don't even know where to start as far as an update. If you're an I2US member you probably know already that Rocael came and met my parents finally this past weekend! It went really well on both sides and they all liked each other... it seemed like they did anyway! My mom said Rocael is cuter in person too, which is definitely true. I think pictures just show off his bad features.... or make his features look bad... or I don't know... anyway!!

I'm in my 20th week of pregnancy now, which is halfway through! I can't believe how fast the time is going! Everyone says the 3rd trimester seems to last forever though because you're just so uncomfortable and ready to get that little booger out! Hopefully that time flies by too! Next Thursday is my next ultrasound where I'll hopefully find out whether I'm having a boy or a girl!! I can't wait to know! I'll also know if everythin is ok or not. I had a scare about diabetes, but ended up passing the dreadful 3-hr test and the Quad screen (neural/spinal defects blood test) came back negative as well! So great news all around so far! Also, I've only gained 3 pounds since I started which is great because since I'm overweight already my doctor only wants me to gain 15 total... 20 max. She was very happy with me at the last appointment :oD

I'm here at work and pretty bored and irritated. Mainly all I'm getting is people calling to be transferred to a room, people asking for quarters so they can do laundry, and key-card re-dos. I just got a call right now checking for reservations in October for a week... during Biketober fest which is a big event where our rates go up again... well when I told him the rates he started arguing with me about how on the website it says $59.95 and that "legally" we have to honor that and that he wanted to talk to a manager. I refused to do it and told him the manager wasn't here, because I knew that what he was saying wasn't true. You see, when we update our rates here, it automatically updates the rate on the website. I even double checked the site to make sure. He didn't go far enough into the system to see that it goes up to $125.95 on the 16th, 17th, and 18th. Douche bag. I hate when people pull that "customer is always right" and "legally this" crap. It's so irritating, like I'M the one who makes the freaking rules!! LEAVE ME ALONE!! But yeah, most of the bikers that have ever stayed here are annoying and rude and I swear I'm going to have to request off for that weekend because I will go off on them... I'll be 8 months pregnant and NOT wanting to deal with BS from those people!! ::sigh::

I think I'm going to have a baby with a lot of hair. I could be wrong, but  I've started getting heartburn pretty much throughout the day. It's not anything severe, but it's enough for me to notice and be bothered by. It's an old wives tale of course, but it seems to be true because I know people who had bald babies who never got heartburn and the ones who had hairy babies had severe heartburn lol. It'll be so cute if it comes out with a full head of jet black hair... awwww :oD I will be a little disappointed if the baby doesn't have black hair... I'm really hoping it does!

Bahhh 3 more hours... what am I going to do??!!

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How could I forget?? Haha... soooo much has been going on as most (probably all) of my readers know....

...the last time I posted was last Tuesday night. Had a horrible night that night... everybody was getting on my nerves and I couldn't get over it. I just thought it was really weird and then I realized that i should have started my period on that Sunday and I hadn't, so I thought "Hmmm... maybe I should go buy a test" So after work I went to Walmart and bought First Response 3 pack. I went home believing that I was probably just late because every other time I had a scare it was negative. But I took the first test and all of a sudden I see the positive line coming up. I texted my friend Britt and she said "Well sometimes those things are defective... take another one. I took another one... and positive was the result. Then I kinda started freaking out. This is something I wasn't prepared for and I was so worried about what my parents were going to think of me. I figured they would freak out on me.

Didn't sleep very well that night and ended up waking up at like 7 something.. didn't go to sleep until after 1. My mom was awake too and I started telling her about horrible my night was and how I couldn't snap out of the bad attitude. She said "Well it's probably just PMS... either that or you're pregnant" and I said "I don't know, but I am 3 days late" and she said "Well that's not good. That's probably the worst thing that could happen to you right now." She went on a walk and while she did that I went back to Walmart and bought some Prenatal vitamins... but I brought the box for the tests with me so if she was there when I returned she'd see that's what I went and did. I went to my room for like 45 minutes and was talking to my good friend Kristin about everything. Then later I went out to the living room where she was on the computer and laid the 2 tests down next to her... this is more or less the conversation we had

M: What is this? It's negative?
K: Mom, it's 2 lines, it tells you right there
M: You're pregnant. Well you're in trouble aren't you
::crying I am and not responding::
M: Well you need to figure out first if he's going to support you
::then I hear a bunch of typing and assumed she was probably emailing her friends because she always likes to talk about me with her friends::
K: Don't go telling all your friends
M: I won't tell my friends if you don't expect me to help you with this baby! You're not only changing your life, but you're changing our lives too. I think you did this on purpose! You've been talking about wanting a baby for a long time
K: If I did it on purpose I wouldn't be crying right now!!!
M: You need to be the one to tell your father. I'm not telling him.
::then I just cried for like 10 minutes and she kept looking at me::
M: Well, I guess it's not the worst thing that could happen
K: Mom, you just said to me earlier that it is
M: Well, I mean it could be worse, you could be pregnant with a man like Leon or Lalo. At least this guy is treating you good. Plus your dad's first child was out of wedlock (and she named several other people)

It continued a little more... then later she had to meet her sister for lunch. Right before she left, she gave me a kiss on the cheek and said "I love you, and we're gonna work this out"

WOO! BIG relief. She turned around so quickly! She also ended up telling my dad later on because she couldn't hold it in anymore and that was fine with me because I was scared to tell him. The next morning I woke up and he hadn't left for work yet. I was laying on the couch watching Regis and Kelly and he came and bent down into my view and said "I love you" which means "I love you, and it's going to be ok" If he can control a situation he'll say more, but if it's something that he can't control he just gives me assurance that he loves me and that it is ok. He's always been that way I don't know why I was so scared.

Told my brother through text message and he wasn't upset and said "Good maybe mom will stop bugging us now" because she kept mentioning it to him and his wife. I thought that was funny. Oh and also right after my dad left my mom was like "So I couldn't help it... I bought you something for later..." and we went into her room and out of the closet she pulls out 2 little unisex colored outfits for a baby. She's now excited needless to say lol. Didn't take her long, and I'm happy for that. She ended up buying another little outfit a few days later.

Didn't tell Rocael right away because I was trying to wait until I could tell him in person. Friday though he figured it out without me really hinting. I was trying to get him to let me see him on Saturday and he didn't want me too.. and kept making excuses. When he called that day I was begging him because I reallllly wanted to see him. Then he asks me "Tienes tu menstruacion?" and of course I told him no... and he asked why and I said I didn't know. Then he said he'd call me later cause he was working. Not even 10 minutes later he was calling and asking why I didn't have it and asked if I was pregnant. I told him no at first and was going to wait but then I told him later on in the evening. He had "joked" (according to him) earlier that he'd be mad if I were pregnant... but he wasn't because he admitted that we weren't careful and there's nothing we can do about it now.

I ended up going on Saturday to see him and he said he was happy but worried about how he's going to pay for the baby and send money to his family etc etc which of course made me feel like he really didn't want it. But several times in the middle of the night his hand ended up on my lower stomach...which was really cute. :o) I think deep down he's excited, just a little scared. Heck, I'M SCARED. lol.

So Sunday we didn't really do much because I had to be at work at 3. We ate at El Toro and did his laundry and that's pretty much all we had time for. Went to work and had some horrible woman/guests screaming at me. The woman told me she was calling corporate because I told her what street we were on lol.. apparently with attitude, which I totally disagree. I did get attitude later when she called me incompetent and I hung up on her. Her kids were here for Spring Break and they said there was feces all over their pillow, yet we couldn't see this feces covered pillow. They were full of feces lol. Ended up getting a refund (which is what they wanted) after making a scene and cursing and yelling at me and threatening to call lawyer etc etc. It was horrible and I was shaking I was so worked up.

Monday I had off and I went back to Orlando because Rocael had court the next morning and I'd be taking him. Checked into the hotel and he didn't end up getting home til like 8:00. I was kinda bummed about that. We went and ate at Chipotle again and then went back to the hotel. He couldn't sleep I think probably because he was a little worried about court. He went to sleep after 1 I remember. I woke up at 530 to get ready, woke him up at 6 and we left by 6:30 getting to the courthouse around 7 and there were already people waiting outside. They opened the doors at 7:30 and then of course we had to go through security. Then we waited outside the courtroom until about 8:20. They didn't end up starting until after 9. I couldn't go in with him because there were so many people, but opposite of when I went to court with Leon, they had the translator in there first, which was awesome. He got out around 12:00 and his fine was $328 and he paid the whole thing then and there. He didn't want to do a payment plan. 

After court we went and ate at Chickfila. Then back to his apartment to pick up his friend Jose because they wanted to go look for a new truck. There other one is broken. I really didn't want to, but I did it because I know he needed to. Didn't end up finding any good deals which was kinda a bummer. But anyway later we went to our park and relaxed for a while then went to Barnes and Noble and looked at Baby Name books lol... we both got bored quick but let me tell you we had some fun with some of those names!! After we went and ate at the little taqueria where they have $1 tacos and then later went to some apartment complex searching for a truck that was supposedly on sale. We didn't find anything. Soon after I get a text from Jennifer telling meher boyfriend cheated on her. Then Rocael and I start talking about the differences between men and women and we ended up getting in a huge fight because I misunderstood and said something mean before I thought. It ended up being ok later on, but I still feel miserable about it. But Pooh gave me some excellent advice through a PM and I'm trying my best to take it. 

Now I'm wanting to go to Orlando on Sunday because Tuesday is Rocael's birthday and he keeps saying no because he doesn't have any money. So I'm all depressed right now but I'm not going to force it and I'm going to try not to say anything else about it. But I probably will. I have a hard time not expressing my feelings and what i want. He said we'd talk later.

But anyway, work is going ok so far, kinda busy-ish... well more like steady. I've sold like 13 rooms already. That's pretty good. Saturday I have to go to my friend Whitney's wedding shower. I also need to go to Bed Bath and Beyond tomorrow to get her something because I haven't done that yet. I'm gonna have to show up late too which I'm not happy about but hey, gotta work, right?? I also need to figure out what I'm getting for Rocael. I have no idea.

Anyway, I think I'm tired of typing for now. Maybe I'll get a change later to update again! Until next time <3

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Slacking mainly because here at work it's been really busy with all these bikers. Seriously. I hate this week. I'm tired of the stinkin rumble from the bikes, I'm tired of the smokey drunk smart ass people, I'm tired of not being able to park easily, I'm tired of having to drive slow because they have nowhere to go....the list goes on. This is seriously the worst week of every year. Even before I worked it annoyed me. It's annoying when you're driving, windows up, and music loud and you still get over-powered by some stupid motorcycle that thinks he's cool because he has a loud bike. DUMMMMB.

Anyway, Saturday night Rocael came over to my house. Well actually I went to Orlando and picked him up. He was arriving around the time I was and he told me his friend called and said there were police at his apartment again. My heart was pounding so hard until I drove through and they weren't stopping anyone. Anyway, picked him up and shhh he stayed at my house (my parents went to Jacksonville for Friday/Saturday to visit my brother and his wife) Sunday we went to the beach cause it was a beautiful day but the water was FREEZING!!!  We ran in at the same time and not even 30 seconds later were we out of it and shivering. Poor Rocael had chicken skin lol. He was so cute. 

Went to take him back to Orlando around 6:30. He slept most of the way there and when we were arriving I was so tired he's like "If you want I'll pay for a hotel for you... I don't want you driving when you're tired." Awww so sweet. So I stayed Sunday over there and when I woke up at 6 to take him back to his apartment in the morning I decided just to go ahead and go home, because the week before I couldn't sleep when I went back to the hotel. 

Got home around 8:00 and fell asleep on the couch from like 8:30 until 11 lol. Woke up took a shower, went to sams and walmart with my mom, and later went to my friend brittany's house to return her hamsters and play some video games. Today here I am at work...irritated as all get out. Seriously everything is pissing me off. I've been trying to relax but I haven't had any luck. I've had so many annoyances today it's not even funny. I just hope the rest of this week is better than today. 

Well next Tuesday is Rocael's court date for driving without a license. I asked him "Tienes miedo?" and he's like "No, no tengo miedo" Thousands of people have gone to court for the same thing and been fine. It just sucks now that if he gets caught again he'll be arrested. Stress stress stress.

Bah, I wish I could see him right now. I know he'd take all this irritation away... just with one hug.. and one cute face expression. I'm falling guys....

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... this man just came to buy a room and his phone rang... he answers it and it was his wife right(I'm assuming). He then procedes to say that he's going to be late and then says "i'm just at my brother's house" and then I hear him saying "Love you too" then he hangs up, says thank you and walks out. I didn't even look him in the face or respond to him after I heard him lie like that. Nasty mofo. He's probably about 40 minutes away from where he lives. Cheating mofo.

Work is so slow today I'm gonna lose my mind. I've been trying to look up some info on what happens to immigrants in court for driving without DL but have had a hard time finding anything. Took the advice from Debenny and e-mailed the Orange County Clerk's office. But I used a fake email lol and said my name was Julie!!! Hoping to hear back from them within the next few days!! Fingers crossed that I get a response soon!

Last night i was looking at hotels online for Miami.... ummmm they're all so expensive!! Even like a little tiny roach looking motel is like $85!! It's crazy! I'm still waiting to find out if Rocael's friend is coming with us. I need to book a room dang it and i need the thumbs up from Rocael.

Geez it feels so late and I still have almost 4 hours until I can go home!!!! AHHH!!

Oh oh!! Today I was able to run even longer! I burned off 500 calories and did 3.2 miles. Each day I get a little better. Can't wait until I start noticing a change. Seriously. I think I'm becoming obsessed with this. haha but I think it's for the good!!!

Dios mio! Estoy aburrrrrida! Solo vendí 9 cuartos. No es mucho y tengo nada para hacer! Ayudame!!! :o(

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Well, I'm pretty much ready for this stinkin weekend to be over.. all the horrific traffic... the complaints about how much the rooms are... the phone calls asking if I have rooms when I'm booked...the directions phone calls..."can u call me a cab" when every cab place is booked... the list goes on. I only have 2 more people to check in until we are completely full! Luckily most of this crap (minus traffic) ends for me tonight at 11. I don't have work Sunday or Monday. Woot woot!!

I wanted to go to Orlando but Rocael was saying something about how he needs to send money to his family this weekend and so he doesn't have any. I don't have any either (I did until I bought that treadmill last night lol)! I have $12.12 in my bank account and about $15 cash. Talk about being broke, this is how Kim lives lol.. paycheck to paycheck. :o( Good thing I don't need gas right now, else I'd be up poop creek. But yeah, kinda bummed that I can't see Rocael. We didn't really get to talk about it much so maybe he'll change his mind, but I doubt it... plus he hasn't sent money to them because we've been together every weekend so I don't blame him and I know they need the money more than I need to see him. But it still sucks. It's one of those things where you wish money grew on trees lol. Then everyone would be happy...of course then there probably wouldn't be any trees and we'd be dying for oxygen.

Read my horoscope today...sometimes they seem for real and others not... but part of mine said "You're on the verge of making at least one big dream come true-- so push a little and see what comes next. You never know how good things can be until you actually strive for success." I like what it says because I feel like it applies to this whole weight loss issue. Even if it's not actually true, it's still kinda like inspiration in a way? I don't know... But  my entire life I've been overweight and i've always kind of slacked off and made excuses as to why I couldn't lose weight. Well now that i have this treadmill I have no reason not to lose... I can't say things like  "Oh I can't workout today because it's raining/hot" "I don't have enough money for a gym membership" or "I have no one to go with me, I hate going on the street alone". Everyone has been kinda discouraging saying that I'm not going to use it... but it's in my room right in my face taking a lot of space and this is really something I want. I've wanted it for a long time. I'm just so excited for what's to come. I've already been eating better, but exercise is the most important part. I'm ready... I'm ready for that muscle pain!! I'm ready for smaller clothes!!! I'm ready to feel comfortable at the beach, club, or wherever I am!!! I'm ready for so many things!

SHIT. Rocael just called and said he got a ticket at his apartment complex today and has court on March 11. I hate this!!! If he gets deported or put in jail I'm going to flip out. They didn't arrest him though like they did Leon, but still. I guess maybe that's a good sign?? I have no idea. He just better not get caught driving again!! Else he will DEFINITELY be arrested. Gosh this sucks.

Good news is, he said he sent money and he wants me to still come tomorrow!! He actually wanted me to come tonight, but no one has rooms and the ones that do have rooms are shitty motels for 99 bucks. So I looked for tomorrow and they're down. We'll be staying at a ramada for 69. 

Well, I'm gonna go for now... update as soon as I can! <3

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I haven't been updating this thing! I was doing good for so long and now I've skipped like 3 days. Oh well. Tuesday night I was keeping busy at work between phone calls, arrivals, walk-ins, and making a bracelet and a keychain. Time went by realllly fast. Wednesday I had off of work and I did some laundry and then went to Orlando to see Rocael. We went to Chick-fil-a... and it was his first time eating there. He LOVED the waffle fries so much he bought more lol. 

Yesterday I had work and it was pretty slow except the damn phone wouldn't stop ringing. Mr. Braswell, a man I've been helping over the phone for the past 5 or 6 months arrived when I was gone on Wednesday. He called me and was like "You're not working?" and I told him how Ramesh had changed my schedule blah blah and how I'd be there tomorrow. Well he called me again Thursday morning and was like "I know this might be hard to do, but  I need another room... I'll see ya this afternoon" So I knew that we had some blocked off by Ramesh so when I got to work I cancelled it and knew that it would be easy and not a big deal. Well he came in around 6 and after we figured all the money stuff out, he handed me the $500 he promised me. "This is for you. Thanks for all your help" He told me he was gonna hook me up... I'm stoked. lol Now I can get my treadmill! I might go tonight even! Nick, my old manager was joking that I took his money lol... he also told me that Mr. Braswell ended up giving him $250 more when he left at the end of the week. He asked if I could book his rooms for next year and I told him I'd have to talk to Ramesh first (cuz a lot of times they block it off) but I decided I wasn't going to do that and just book it anyway. Mr. Braswell and Ramesh don't know that yet though haha... but I'm really hopin I get that extra too!!! But wow, tips like this kinda make all the BS seem worthwhile lol. 

My friend Kristin came and visited me last night too!! It was so good to see her and update each other. We always have so much to talk about because our visits are too far between each other :o( It was good though!

Gotta work today 11-7. I'm not even close to being ready yet so I'm going to go ahead and end this here. If it gets slow today at work (I doubt it because we have a bagillion arrivals) I can update again, but if not I probably won't until tomorrow or possible Sunday or maybe even Monday. I don't think I'll be able to go to Orlando :o( But yeah... I'll update as soon as I can! <3

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I always hate Mondays after having 2 days off. Plus I always work mornings Monday so it makes it extra sucky because if I don't wake up early every day my body is all screwed up and tired because I usually sleep until 10. I went to bed around 11:30 and woke up at 6. I was sleeping SO good and it was freezing in the house so I really didn't want to get up. I snoozed the clock 3 times lol.

The weekend was pretty good. Went to Orlando again of course to see Rocael. I got to my hotel around 3:00. I stayed at the Ramada on I-Drive... 

That's the view from the room...a lovely  view of a lake and Wet n Wild lol. The room was nice too... definitely felt a lot better staying there than the place I stayed at before!

Rocael was working when I arrived so I just hungout there watching TV until he called me at 6:20. I was getting restless!! It was funny too because I had just opened my phone to call him when the phone started ringing. Went over to his place and then we went to eat at Chipotle again (boy does he love Chipotle lol) then went down to International Dr. and walked around a bit then back to the room where we drank Jarritos mandarina and watched tv and what not. Could not sleep until like 2am...have no idea why. Talked to Jennifer while Rocael was snoring lol oh wait... maybe that's why I couldn't sleep hahaha.

Woke up the next morning and left by 11. Then stopped at some huge sports store and a shoe store, drove around and thought about going to Sea World (until we found out it's $75 a piece plus $25 to park)and then we went to none other than San Jose's for some of that famous guacamole lol. After San Jose's we went back to IKEA 'cause I wanted to see the whole place. It's pretty neat but there are wayyyy too many people in that mofo!! I was going to buy these awesome smelling candles until I got to the line where we would have had to wait probably 30 minutes. I decided it wasn't worth it and put the candles back. INSANE. It was so funny when we walked in there though... this poor man sat down on this raffia looking basket that had a pillow sitting in it... he thought it was a chair and he fell through and almost went face first. I felt horrible for him because I know how he must've felt. You could see it in his face too. He was older and sophisticated looking too. Poor guy! I did laugh though after I passed him because it was pretty funny to see. 

After IKEA we went to our park for a while, then to Walmart, and then to eat at the little Taqueria where they have the mini tacos!! Good amount of food for 2 for $9.50. Kinda like Taco bell but with authentic tacos instead which are better anyway!!

After eating we went back to Rocael's apartment for about an hour and I left around 9:30, arrive in Daytona around 10:30 and now here I am at work of course. I get to leave in about an hour and let me tell you I am READY!!

So I can't remember if I mentioned this before but there's this man that's coming here this week for NASCAR stuff and he's been telling me for like 4-5 months that he's going to give me $500 bucks for helping him out... he's got like multiple rooms, I gave him a better rate than anyone, and ground floor. He called again today to find out when I worked and I'm just realllly hoping that it's $500 for real lol... Guess what I'm going to get if I do get the money! I thought about putting it towards a laptop, but I decided I'd rather buy a treadmill! People always say that if you buy one, you won't use it, but  know I will because I hate walking in the street and I hate going to the gym because I'm self conscious about people looking at me. When I used to exercise up in Gainesville people would drive by and bark at me and what not so I got tired of that. I've been walking with my mom a bit, but she's got long legs and for every step she takes I almost have to take 2 to keep up with her... and i got shin splints last week because she's so damn fast lol she told me "You need to go at your own pace" Well I know I won't go out in the street alone and I have no one to go with so yeah...  I'm really excited about this, because I know I'll start shedding the pounds wayyy faster. Eating salads isn't enough! Exercising is the most important thing!

This phone system here at work is RIDICULOUS. It has what you call "night" mode where if it's on and someone calls it goes to like an automated thing and if you want to speak to someone you press 0. Well it keeps cutting on to that and the owner thinks I'm being lazy because every time he calls it's on. Then if you try to answer it on the switchboard, it cuts off and goes to night mode again. It's realllllly starting to get on my nerves. I hope it's fixed by tomorrow at this time. 

Well it's about time to start counting the money (thank goodness!!) so I'll be ending this here... bye for now!!